I was a muslim since 2006, first two years i ascribed myself to Ahlul Sunnah wal djama'ah, and then i was introduced to dawatus as salafiyah (islam as understood by the salaf us saliheen). It was in 2008 i came across Answering-islam. I was curious and really wondered what on earth made these christians belive they can refute islam. A few weeks passed by, i randomly read some of the materials on the website, and of course i couldn't stand it anymore, and it really disturbed me. A few more weeks passed by and "relief" came to me when i found out about Answering-Christianity and their polemical responses to the authors of your website. In a short time, there was not a single muslim apologist left that i didn't know of. But after three years of back and forth reading the articles and rebuttals of each site, i gradually saw the flaw in the muslim attacks on the deity of Jesus ( at one point i even stopped watchingg Zakir Naik and his mentor Ahmed deedat, reading about the trinity myself on some christian websites, even as a muslim i began to see that their argument was very simplistic and unscholarly, and from then on i only limited myself to Shabir Ally, Bassam Zawadi and the Islamic Awareness). I was not convinced by their effort to defend Muhammed against the charges against him. Thanks to brother David and John Gilchrist, the "Muhammed in the bible" argument evaporated. Like Farhan Qureishi, what bothered me most was the incident of Abdallah ibn abi Sarh al-Amiri and his contribution to a few verses in surah 23.
Secondly as i also began reading on my own about Christian theology, i saw its superiority over islamic aqeedah. I found William lane craig's philosophical argument for the superiority of the trinitarian concept of God over a unitarian convincing aswell as his historical case for the ressurection of Jesus. I compared the islamic and christian concept of sin, the christian concept of the law and its function , salvation etc, and i began to realise the emptiness of muslim "spiritual" life when i read about the christian doctrine of sanctification. One verse i thought alot about was Paul's word in Romans 1:16: "For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes". What does he mean when he uses the word "power" It means the gospel is effective because it carries with it the omipotence of God, i witnessed this when i visited some churches, got to know some of the people and read and heard testimonies from people who have received Christ as Lord and Saviour. Indeed the love they manifested and the quality of their spiritual life, i wondered why allah's love is no better than that of a gentile. I was more open now, and i read 1 corinthians 2:14: "The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit." If i didn't have the spirit of God as a muslim, how could i know that i have correctly comprehended the christian faith and the bible in order to be able to refute it? Then in september 2011 i renounced islam and received Jesus as my Lord and saviour, trusting in him for the forgivness of my sins and deliverance from the curse of the law that was upon me due to my sins.
